For once in my life, have had a momentous revelatory thought without the aid of either a)100 friends b)weeping, sobbing, teeth gnashing c)falling over and bashing head painfully.

Miraculous thought process went something like so:

Laura (walking down the street): Lalala, sha li lah, oooh, boop boop bi doop do ... I am young. I have so many more relationships ahead of me. Look at the bigger picture, LauraBitch. I have learned from Will, I can be thankful. But now it's time to move on, because this he has been one person in my life - but there will be many more. Let him have the space he needs, and I will take my space and do whatever I want to do. In the big scheme of things - this is so small.

You don't know how proud I am of myself. I have never been hit with such a clear understanding of life - and what this one, tiny second is in it. This has been a bad experience but one that when you look at the whole, is very small indeed.

I had one years worth of excellent, funny, intimate, lovely moments with someone whom I loved. And 1 month of shitty, angry, pissed of repressed moments. So what? People go through life, and it is hard. But it gets better - and I realise that now. And just because I am Will's 'reject', that doesn't mean I won't be someone else's ... not reject(?). I can't wait for the future, because it is my life. And I can finally begin to let go of the past.

Maybe we can even be friends in the future, although that may be wishful thinking. But I won't be angry, or sad or vengeful or any of the things I was before. I feel...like this is how it should be.